I have to brag!

I think I must have the cutest nephew in the world! :)

Just look at this photo from his 1st birthday party.

He is actually turning 1 on the 18th November, but my sister and her hubby wanted to have a party for him in Australia with all his little friends.

The party was a little creatures party :)

I just want to hug him and squeeze him and give him so many kisses!!!

Thankfully there are only 14 more sleeps till I get to see them!! I can't wait!!!

*grin*  

I had my final dress fitting on Saturday. WOW! My dress has come out beautifully! I am so excited now. All my worries and concerns about the sleeves etc were not necessary. BUT I have decided not to post a photo of it until I get the proper wedding pics. I'd rather show you my dress as I wear it on the day :) That way I will hopefully have really nice hair and make up too ;) I am so happy that at least one other thing has been sorted out and now I have one less thing to worry about.

I stepped on the scale this morning and I am not happy :( I am trying so hard to be below 80 by the time the wedding is here and I have less than 4 weeks left! I know that it is practically TOM today but still. I shouldn't have gone up that much :( *sigh*

I'm sure that now that I am back at gym and giving it my all that the weight will start moving again soon. I have only been back doing the exercise thing for just on one week after all. I must be patient!!!!

But it is soooooooo hard!

I guess all the little biscuits and snacks that I keep sneaking don't really help either ;) - yes I KNOW!! bad me.

I have decided that from today I will NOT allow myself even one taste of anything sweet. Not one bite of a cake, not one teeny biscuit, not one square of chocolate and finally, not one freezoccino! (my ultimate weakness of late) 

I have until my nephews birthday (18 Nov) to lose 4kg. Only then will I be allowed some birthday cake ;)

Right, I feel better now.

It seems to me that in every family, there has to be at least one evil aunt/uncle/cousin/family member etc... Well last night I had to attend the engagement party of my cousin and I had to be in the same building as my evil aunt.

I am still shaking from the whole experience.

I never thought I could actual feel so much hatred and bitterness towards another human being. I honestly didn't think I had it in me. I get on with most people and visa versa (I think it must be a Pisces thing). But this Evil Aunt has crossed the line and I don't think I will ever be able to look her in the eye without wanting to hit her or ever actually want to make any kind of conversation or have any contact with her.

Let me go back a bit in time to try and fill you in.

The year is 1977, It's a lovely Saturday in March, the birds are singing, the sun is shining and my mom is in agony. I want out!
I was only about two weeks early but that is me. I am early for EVERYTHING! So at about lunch time I decided to make my entrance into the world. Yes, I was the most gorgeous baby (okay, that's my opinion but I'm sure it must be true).

So anyway, the following day happened to be the wedding of this evil aunt (who will be known as EA from this point on) to my mother's brother. But now you see, my EA decided that my mother gave birth to me on the day before their wedding on purpose! Just so that she could steal some of the limelight from EA! Yes folks! I was a tool in the stealing of EA's marital Glory! Absurd huh!

That was just the start! EA and my SU (spineless uncle) decided that they were going to punish my mom and her family for the next 10 years or so by not talking to us and by not letting their kids play with us. Those were probably the most peaceful years of my life ;)

The only problem was that my grandmother and grandfather were really suffering from all this.

My grandfather was a very sick man. He had emphysema and practically lived with an oxygen tank attached to him. My grandmother couldn't manage to look after him by herself so my mom and dad built a cottage at the back of their house and so my grandparents came to live with us.

This just added more fuel to the fire as now my EA decided that my grandmother loved us more and her kids were suffering without the constant doting and attention of their "beloved" grandmother. I mean REALLY!!! In reality, they hardly ever saw my grandparents because EA had SU under her big fat chubby thumb and wouldn't let him see his own parents very often at all. This is a GREAT way to get your kids to bond with their grandparents isn't it! When they did come to visit (which was very seldom) they would sneak around the side of the house so as not to provoke any interest from my little brothers who only wanted to play with their little cousins (who happened to be the same age as them). Noooo EA's kids might get a disease if they played with us!!!

So this went on for a while and unfortunately it took the death of my grandfather to bring SU, EA and my parents back to speaking terms.

This is turning into a very long story so I will try and sum it up for you.

Since then, SU and his brother have stopped talking to eachother. This is of course due to EA and her bitchiness. Nothing is good enough for her and she is trying her hardest to tare SU and the cousins away from us. She hates us with a passion and isn't shy to let us know this either.

This all used to upset me terribly. But since I've gotten older and wiser ;) I honestly couldn't give a shit if I never see the woman again. EVER.

If they invite my grandmother around for dinner at their house, EA won't even make eye contact with my gran. She will dish up for everyone at the table except my gran! It is beneath her to even pass the salt to my gran!!!
She begrudgingly attended my grandmothers 80th birthday party last month and couldn't even bring herself to wish my gran happy birthday! AT HER OWN PARTY!!!!!!!!!! What kind of human being is this?

My grandmother is the sweetest, kindest, softest person on this earth. She hasn't got it in her to even hurt an ant! She doesn't know how to be mean!!! Why is EA treating her like this????

So anyway, this is basically why I have such strong feelings of anger and resentment towards this woman. Even last night, at the engagement party, she stood with her son's future inlaws and explained to them how much she dislikes us and this was all done in ear shot of us! Well, my one brother and myself heard her. Nice huh!

*take's deep breath*

I wish we could just cut ties with them and live our own lives in peace. Why subject oneself to something so uncomfortable and unnecessary!

I'll tell you why.. because of my gran. We go to these "family" do's for her. To try and make her happy... But the truth of the matter is that I don't think it makes her happy. I think it upsets her more... But this is life...

I think that every family has issues. I am just so grateful that I get on so well with my siblings and their partners. I couldn't ask for a better brother inlaw or future sister inlaw :) I am one of the lucky ones!

YAY ITS FRIDAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Right, it is now officially official! I am NOT doing the 100km bike race this year :( *sniff*

I did my final decider test this morning. I went to my first spinning class in over two months!!!!! OUCH!!!! My poor lungs are still screaming and my face is bright red!!! STILL!!!

I did survive though, so that's a good thing isn't it? ;)

I am rather disappointed about the race but to be honest, it is a week before my brothers wedding. We are going to have so much to do, so many people to see etc etc etc ETC!!! So it probably isn't a bad thing if I don't do the race. What a pity I've already paid the entry fee - argh. But mark my words!!! I WILL DO THE RACE NEXT YEAR!!!!!!!! Come hell or high water (what does that mean anyway?).

I hope I'm not overdoing it this week with the gymming. But I really want to be at the level I was before I got sick. I was doing so well! I think if I take Friday and Saturday as rest days, and then get back to it on Sunday it should be okay.

Last night I attempted to make myself some low fat hamburgers (from scratch)... Well... next time I am gonna just stick to stir fries and roast veggies ;)

I spent ages mixing the mince with the other ingredients, I even managed to roll the mince into burgers without being ill (touching raw meat freaks me out a little). They really looked good!

BUT

As soon as I put my burgers into the pan they disintegrated and I ended up with evil mince meat in a tortilla (didn't have any bread rolls). It really was gross!

I am going to give the cooking a break for today and go for sushi tonight :) I think it is MUCH safer!

We had a major power outage last night. Apparently most of Johannesburg was plunged into darkness. I am still trying to find out what caused it but so far there is no mention of it in any of the online news sites. We had no electricity from just after 7pm till just after 10pm!!! Reading by torch light is kind of fun though ;)

Time to see what today holds for me. It is gonna be another scorcher!

My shower is back and so am I :)

I got home yesterday evening to find that, true to his word, my landlord had sent the plumber over to my apartment to fix my VERY blocked shower. WHAT A PLEASURE!!!!!! I will never take showering after gym for granted again :) teeheee.

I made the most delicious dinner last night too. I think being back at gym has made me feel alive again after being sick for so long. I actually felt like cooking!!! I haven't felt like cooking in SO LONG!!!

Yesterday I was saying to nj how bored I am with the food I have been cooking and eating lately and I just can't think of anything new to make. So he came up with a whole bunch of ideas and I took a few of them and made them my own.

First I roasted some veggies (sweet potato, butternut, red pepper and tomato - with some dried rosemary, black pepper and olive oil spray). While the veggies were doing their thing in the oven, I cut up some chicken breasts and cooked them in a yummy sauce that I concocted out of salsa, tomato paste, lemon juice, chili sauce and various dried herbs. It was soooo tangy and good!!! Once the veggies were done, I threw them into the pan with the chicken and sauce and then served that all up with a bit of couscous that I had cooked with chicken stock. *droooooool* I forgot how much I love cooking. It's just the cleaning afterwards that gets to me.

Guess what I'm having for lunch today ;)

I don't understand how I make a recipe with enough ingredients for two meals and yet I always end up with enough food for at least four meals?!? I'm not complaining but it is so bizarre! Maybe in the past I would have eaten enough for two people? Yeah, I guess that makes some sense ;)

So, today I went to gym again. I did lower body exercises this time so that my upper body could have a much needed rest. I am rather sore today :) But it's a good sore!

I didn't manage to go on my walk/run last night :( I got home and all I wanted to do was cook. hehe oh well.. there is always today ;) maybe...

Oh and I am drinking water like a sponge at the moment! But what goes in must go out!!! Therefore I must be off!!! ;)

I finally made it back to gym today! *huge big wide toothy grin* (after almost two months of not gymming AT ALL)

I even woke up with a big smile this morning!!! Yip, grinning at 4:45am is an entirely new experience for me :) But WOW! What a feeling to actually be back.

It was strange getting up so early and the sun had already started rising. The last time I went to gym it was still dark at 5am. THATS how long its been since I was last there. It really does make it so much easier to get up and go though.

The gym looks like a bomb hit it. Since I was last there it seems that they have decided to revamp the place. So almost everything was covered in dust. But that didn't put a damper on my morning :) noooo sirreeee

I concentrated on the weights side of things. I don't want to jump straight into cardio just yet. But I did do a leeetle bit of cardio too. I am thinking of starting to walk/run every evening when I get home from work. That way I can do cardio in the evenings (in the fresh air) and concentrate on toning and weights at gym every morning. I think that's a good plan. But lets just see if I have the energy to actually do it tonight :)  I have ALWAYS wanted to be a real road runner! (no, not the bird)... So why not just do it! Obviously with my level of fitness having gone to the dogs.. I'm gonna have to start slow and walk instead of run. But I'll get there soon.

The only sh*tty part of this morning was getting home to find that I still can't use my shower. You see, it has been acting strangely for the last few weeks. The water seems to take longer and longer to go down the drain, so I end up having a mini bath at the bottom of my shower. I asked my dad to come help me sort it out (he has all the tools). So he arrived yesterday with his super plunger gun machine. However... My shower is now completely blocked, as opposed to only slightly blocked.. AND when I use the hand basin.. all the water from the basin, goes into the shower (I have NO idea how that works).
I phoned my landlord and he said that he will sort it out today (I hope). But in the meantime I had to take a bath this morning. I HATE baths!!! The only time I enjoy taking a bath is when it is freezing cold and I need to warm up or chill out :) But after a good gymming session.. the last thing I want to do is take a bath!!! But at least I have that option ;)

There is no way I am using the gym showers... I have issues with that. Just in case you were wondering. ;)

I love days like this!!! :)

Except for the fact that I can't actually see my own blog.. For some reason the site is totally blocked from the office and it keeps saying "server not found" but everyone else seems to be able to see it. ho hum. 

Last night I went to see a brilliant play called "Defending the Caveman" - It is a hilarious show about how men and women relate to eachother and the differences between how they think and act. I laughed for almost the entire show.

Anyway, before I went to the play, I decided to put a load of washing on. It normally takes around 30min for a wash in my machine. I stuck the machine on but it didn't make the normal sound that it usually makes when filling up with water. I looked inside and saw that instead of a gush of water, there was a little trickle. I left it for a while and kind of forgot about it. However, after about 15 minutes I heard nothing. Which is even more odd. So I went to investigate further only to find that there was no water to be found anywhere in my apartment. They were doing construction work or something down the road and had turned the entire buildings water supply off. Argh! So I put my machine on pause (clever huh) and headed off to the show.

When I got home, it was about 11h30pm (WAY past my bed time) but I checked that my water was back on and I had to finish the wash cycle (or end up with very smelly, wrinkled washing the next day).

 Needless to say, I had a LATE night. So this morning when I woke up I couldn't be botherred making work lunch. I figured I'd treat myself to some Take Away's for a change. I was going to get something healthy for lunch but ended up being in a bit of a hurry and my colleague and I stopped off at a burger place to grab a bite. I had a "Tikka" chicken burger (no chips). I don't even remember the last time I had such a "bad" choice of food. And I can't actually believe how my whole outlook on food has changed.

What amazed me the most is how my body has reacted to this food.
One would think that a simple chicken burger (with "Tikka" sauce) wasn't THAT unhealthy.
But I have now got the most horrible heart burn (I think its from the bread roll), I feel very queasy and very tired. It is so strange but I am actually glad I've had this reaction to my lunch :)
It shows me:
a) How healthy I have become and
b) How much my life has changed because of it.

I like being healthy and craving "good" food. I like that my body thrives on healthy food. And it is so good to know that my body can now show me just how bad fast food is for me. hehe. What a clever body I have!

I know you've heard this way too often lately but I WISH I was back in my exercise routine now. I miss being fit. I miss looking at my body and seeing it forming into a nice shape (it has gone so flabby again) and I miss the rush I get from a good workout.

SO, I have decided to go back to gym on Monday no matter what! :)

Okay I think I need to do something drastic to kick my body back into action. My immune system is broken and so is my metabolism etc... It has been over two months since I was at gym and I NEED help.

So, I was wondering if anyone out there has some information on a detox that I can do for a week or two that might get me healthy again. Any ideas? I have always wanted to do one but I honestly don't know where to start and I'd rather do a detox that will have proper results, and has been done by someone before.

I NEED to sort myself out now. Enough is enough.

I was super healthy two months ago and suddenly I am little miss sickness. I don't like that name and it certainly doesn't suit me.

I am Miss HealthyTonedExerciseNut :) Don't you think that name is better? Yip, thought so too.

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Why is it, that whenever someone (I am speaking about myself here) wears a nice, fresh, crisp white shirt, they inevitably spills something on it. Not just any something.. something that will probably never ever go away... Lets say a Freezoccino or something ;) - Murphey's Law

I guess that's what bleach is for?

HOWEVER! Me + bleach = DANGER!!!! So maybe I can ask my mom nicely if she will help :) That's what moms are for isn't it???

I am on a sugar high of note! I just ate a whole role of vitamin C sweets :) Yes, they are laden with glucose!! *bounce* I am enjoying the high.. lets try not think about the crash that comes afterwards though.

Things seem to be very quiet in blogland these days. Where are you all??? I miss you!!!!! COME BAAAAACK!!!!!!!!!!

(why is everyone in the office staring at me? Did I say that aloud?)

teehee

I love sugar high's *bounce*

Seeing as I can't think of anything else to write about, I guess this is it for today. yay!

Yay its MONDAY!!!!!!!!!! heeeeheeeee!!!!

Don't worry, I haven't gone mad. I am just feeling so much better today!!
I know that most people frown upon anti biotic's but I think that sometimes they really are necessary. Like now ;)

However! This is my third lot of anti biotic's in less than 2 months and if these don't fix me for good then I will get cross. But I am hoping for the best and I know that I am on the mend. yay!

I had a pretty boring weekend. I spent most of it lounging around at my parents house (always a good thing to do when you are sick, they tend to spoil you rotten) :)

I woke up this morning in a terrible mood. I was feeling anxious and angry and depressed. I think it may have had something to do with the wrong number that phoned my cell phone at 4:52am?!? Or the fact that I haven't been to gym in SO long, or a number of different reasons BUT I decided to try something new to cheer me up...

I smiled. Yip, that simple. I walked around my flat, with a smile plastered to my face and it really worked!!! I also put some happy music on while I got dressed and ate my breakfast. It isn't easy to eat and smile at the same time but it can be done! ;) And it really worked. In fact, I am sitting here right now with a big smile on my face. I think my colleagues think I am strange but who cares!!! *smile* - try it!

But smiling aside... I am feeling very overwhelmed at the moment by a lot of things that are happening in my life and I am sure that this added stress has been contributing to me not being able to get better. I understand what they mean when they say that stress can eat away at you.

When I get stressed I tend to bottle it up (so that I can deal with it later) and then I end up with lots of "bottles" of stress all waiting to be attended to and ready to burst and sometimes a few of the "bottles" burst open at the same time. Say for instance I have an evil client that I am working with. I'll have an issue that should be dealt with straight away but no, I will bottle it up until that issue escalates into something that I really can't deal with. But in the interim, little bits of stress will leak out of the "bottle" to keep reminding me that it has to be dealt with. Thus poisoning me in the process.

ARGH!

I need a punching bag!!!

But its okay.. I am smiling ;) I can cope with this!

I had an anti pigeon device installed onto my window sill. I paid a fair bit of money for this device. It's basically plastic spikes that are supposed to make it very uncomfortable for the pigeon to land. They are supposed to get a fright when their wings touch the spikes, thus NOT landing on my window sill. But things don't tend to work correctly in Bee's world. I think my pigeons are actually using the spikes to clean their teeth!!! Yes, my pigeons DO have teeth! I've seen them!! (not really). But seriously. This isn't working!!! I will get the pigeons! I will I will!!!

I am sick AGAIN!!!! yes, I can't believe it either. What on earth is going on with me???? I went to see a new doctor on Monday (after spending the entire weekend coughing my lungs out) and she thinks it may be asthma related. She is trying me on a whole bunch of asthma medication but so far I am still coughing and coughing. Did I say I was coughing?

It actually feels as if someone has beaten me up from the inside. Not a fun experience I tell you!

On a good note :) My sister and her family will be here in less than 5 weeks!!! and the wedding is in six weeks!!!!! omg!! where has the time gone? It feels like yesterday that my brother got engaged!!!!!! We are all starting to get very excited now.
I also just got confirmation that my Aussie family are definitely coming for the wedding so that just adds to my excitement!!! *grin*

On another good note... well let me take you back about 3 days... I stepped onto the scale and "eeeeeeeeeek" I was up to over the 82kg mark.. but I stepped onto the scale again this morning and I am back down to 81.4 *whew*. I am NOT allowed a piece of chocolate or anything bad until I am at least just below 80!!! I am so bloody close yet it is just taking so bloody long to get there!!!!!!

I think I need gym to work on all these frustrations ;)

Pity my stupid lungs don't agree... ho hum...

I spent the day at home yesterday because I just didn't have the energy to come to work. I was up most of the previous night coughing and having an internal boxing match. I am so glad I chose to stay in bed. I really needed it and it really helped. Pity I have an over active conscience and HAD to come to work today ;) Why do I feel guilty so easily? It's not like I was staying at home for fun!!! oh well... I'm glad to be back in the land of the living... My walls were starting to close in on me.

Ooooh I think I've found out why the Pigeons are targeting me!!! Well not me as such.. but my windowsill. I stuck my head out of the window yesterday to see if anyone else may have thought of an ingenious way of getting rid of pigeons but I noticed that a) not one other windowsill had pigeon poo on it and b) Mine was the only one that was all scratched and didn't have paint on it!!! So, my conculsion to this mystery is......

The pigeons are using my windowsill as a scratching post!!! To sharpen their beaks or something... How bloody rude!!!!

Wanna hear something funny? I was lying in bed yesterday trying my hardest not to cough. There was a pigeon on my windowsill doing its scratching thing and I had managed to block it out. But something caught my eye and I looked at the window to see what it was. One of the pigeons had hopped into my window and was now inside my room!!! hehe What fun!!! NOT!!!!!!!!!! So I simply stayed in my bed (I didn't want to frighten it and end up with pigeon poo all over my curtains) and I said "Hey, pigeon, you are in my room, please go out" and you know what?!?
It listened to me!!!!!!!

I know what you are thinking... but it wasn't my medication. This really did happen.

So anyway... enough babbling. I have work to do!!!!!!!!

Aaah, what a feeling to wake up, open the curtains to a grey, overcast morning with the fresh, sensual smell of rain in the air. I know that days like this can be gloomy and depressing but somehow today it isn't. It feels calm and clean. I am slightly under dressed for a day like this, BUT who cares! I'll just have to drink more tea to stay warm :)

It's Friday my friends! I think that kind of explains my good mood :) I really wish that this kind of mood could be bottled. And whenever you need it, you just uncork the bottle, take a deep sniff and BAM! Instant good / happy mood!

I have been stressing so much lately about work and gym and other aspects of my life and I have been letting these stresses overwhelm and overpower me. I am going to try very hard from now on to take a step back from these things and compartmentalize them so that each and every thing that is stressing me out will be manageable and doable. There is no reason to stress so much.

I am sure that all these "little" things that I have allowed balloon into "bigger" things are a huge part of the reason that I got such bad flu and am taking so long to recover properly.

I sat down this morning, while eating my breakfast and made a small list of things that I really would like to do, that would be a great benefit to my life right now.

1. I am going to start yoga - I think this would be a GREAT help in dealing with stress and managing my health too.

2. I am going to run! - I don't mean becoming a sprinter or anything like that. I just want to be one of those people who come home from work, change and go out on the street for a jog. A REAL jog! Out there, in the open, where everyone can see my wobbly legs and bum... But who the hell cares!!!!???!!!

3. I am going to SWIM!! - This has been one of my biggest obstacles. I absolutely LOVE swimming. I have been told by so many people that I am a natural swimmer. I feel so free in the water BUT it goes back to when I was a chubby little girl and I used to get teased and taunted so much. I just can't bring myself to get into my swimming gear and go out there in front of the world. (yes, it is only a few people at the gym, but it feels like the world is watching). - I do have to have a leg wax first though... so i'll get to the first two items on my list first ;)

So those are the first three things on my list. I know that they are all doable and I will do them.
First thing is to phone the gym and find out when the yoga classes are. Maybe I could even squeeze in a lunch time one ;) Now THAT would be good!!!

So I'll keep you posted and let you know how I go with these three things. I really feel the need to do something different. I need new challenges and what better way then this? And what better time then NOW! yayyyyy

I hope you all have a relaxing and refreshing weekend :)

So, last week I finally got my new glasses :)

I was going to post a pic of them on Friday (just after I got them) but I totally forgot.

I remembered that I forgot to remember last night :)

So, here are my new glasses... It has now almost been a week and I still haven't gotten used to them. It feels like the ground is raised and I have to walk very carefully! It is also very strange looking at my computer screen... Kind of like looking out of a fish bowl...  but I think I am almost used to that now. I did feel VERY queasy at first though :) BUT I can see so well again!!! What a relief.

I am having trouble getting back into gymming. It is starting to really annoy me. My head and my heart want to get back into it ASAP but my body just won't listen.
Okay, I have been working after hours every day for the past few weeks, and I have been getting to bed really late.

But I HAVE to get back into my old routine!!!! grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr

I am going to give myself till Monday morning and I will be back into it FULL TIME (do you hear me body???) by then!!!

I will darnit!!! grrrrrrrrr arghhhhhhhhh

The extra money from video editing etc is really good, but to be honest, I am TIRED!!! It is hard working a full day and then going straight home to work again... Sometimes I wonder if the little bit of extra money is really worth all the extra stress.

My new couch says yes, it is... but my now very flabby body says no, it certainly isn't.... I'm sure there must be a compromise out there.

So, yesterday was the Big Fast - a.k.a - Yom Kippur. For those of you who don't know what its all about, here is a very brief explanation:

"Yom Kippur is the Jewish day of repentance, considered to be the holiest and most solemn day of the year. Its central theme is atonement and reconciliation.

Eating, washing, cosmetics, wearing leather shoes, and conjugal relations are prohibited. Total abstention from food and drink usually begins half-an-hour before sundown and ends after nightfall the following day.

The name "Yom Kippur" means "Day of Atonement," and that pretty much explains what the holiday is. It is a day set aside to "afflict the soul," to atone for the sins of the past year."

The weather report said that it would be 29 degrees centigrade yesterday but (I am being totally honest here) a small miracle happened and it ended up being totally overcast and VERY cool :) PERFECT weather for fasting. I didn't even feel thirsty (which I normally do, very early into the fast).

So all went well and I feel so good now. I am just really angry with myself. You see, there is a tradition that we have a breaking of the fast meal. We usually get invited out to family or friends and as per all Jewish festivities, there is a LOT of food and pretty much none of it is WW friendly. I had promised myself that I would take it easy after the fast, only drink water (no fizzy drinks) and NO bad food. However.. after a whole day of not eating or drinking ones brain and stomach tend to lose touch with each other and I ended up feasting on all the bad, evil, non WW friendly food.... sigh...

BUT on a good note. I woke up this morning, turned over a new leaf and I am back to counting every single bit of food that enters my mouth. I feel so fat at the moment but I know that TOM is due any second so that might explain it a bit. But I haven't been as strict as I should be lately so I am back to being super strict again :) I have a MONTH left to the wedding!!!!!!! one month!!!!!!!!! uno! eeeeeeeeek! So much for being at 75kg.. but still I want to at least be below 80. That is my pre-wedding goal.

I am now going to get me a cup of green tea :) yay!!!!