Yay! I'm all moved in and unpacked *grin*

I am also rather exhausted but relieved that it is all over.
The movers arrived just after 2pm yesterday and by 10pm last night I had everything unpacked and pretty much organised. I still have to put pictures up and sort my cupboards out but I am mostly there.

I have the most amazing family. They all came to help me out and we got it all done in no time! I think if it wasn't for them, i'd still be stuck trying to figure out where to put the stuff from the first box.

Here are a few pics of my new flat, I still have a lot of work to do and the carpets are being cleaned today (they are really gross), but its mostly there. It is so funny how my furniture, which fitted perfectly in my old and much smaller apartment, just floats in the room. This new flat is huge!

This is the outside corridor
My new kitchen (curtains still coming)

The lounge (I was a bit exhausted at this stage)

My wonderful family "christening" my brand new dining room table

Its great to have the opportunity of having a new beginning, to start of fresh and on the right foot! I started this morning by walking down the 3 flights of stairs to my car :) And when I get home i will walk up. I am not going to use the lift unless I have something big and heavy to carry. *grin* So excited!!!!

Apologies for the lack of entries lately. I am in a bit of a mess at home and my brain is riddled with thoughts of moving etc. So I'd rather not blog and bore you to death by talking about my move every day ;)

But, on that topic, I am officially moving on Wednesday (YAY!). I am collecting the keys to my new flat tonight so I can start getting my clothes and groceries etc moved and then hopefully by Wednesday, all I have to worry about is the movers and the big stuff. I can't wait to get it all over and done with so that I can carry on with my routine. I hate when life gets these little interruptions ;)

I'm not sure if I mentioned before that I had set myself a mini goal. That when I reach 85kg I am buying myself an electric wok. Well, as you can see, this mini goal has turning into a mammoth one and it is taking forever. So, on Saturday I decided to get the ball rolling and use my birthday money to get the wok. However, I have left it at my parents house and I will only be allowed to bring it home when I reach 85kg. The fact that it is there is really helping!! Its quite strange actually. I feel that I have an extra push now because the physical wok is there and it isn't just an idea. So watch this space, hopefully within the next two weeks I will get my wok!!!!!

It was actually quite funny because on Saturday afternoon, my dad, grandmother and I went out for coffee and my gran got a piece of carrot cake to share. I decided that my wok was more important then a taste of carrot cake! hehe It also helped yesterday when I went out for my friends birthday lunch and I actually managed to say no to the desert buffet!!! I am so proud :) Lets just hope I can stick it out and get my wok!!!!! I want it NOW!!!!!!! hehe

I made it to gym this morning *grin* I did 30 min on the bike and then did some arm toning weight stuff. I have to get back into going every weekday, its so easy to come up with excuses. I have a new mantra though! it goes... wok wok wok wok wok wok :) you should try it too!!!

Well, I am almost mostly packed :) Yes, that does make sense in my mind! It was a public holiday yesterday, I was supposed to work too but managed to get out of it by the skin of my teeth (now that doesn't make sense but i'm sure you get the idea). So I ended up spending the whole day packing! I really have a hell of a lot more stuff then I thought I had. In fact, I told the moving company lady person that I would have about 3 or 4 boxes at most .... HA HA!!!!!! I am now on number 12!!!!!!! Its scary how much one accumulates over a year.

I have been doing well with my "new" (old) attitude! Turning down choccies and stuff here and there. Feeling very proud too. Yes, I have had the odd slip up but i'm doing the baby steps thing and at least i'm getting more tough with myself. (not in a bad way though).

My birthday was great! Although I don't think I want to see another cocktail for about another year. My liver is still angry with me. hehe

I missed spinning this morning because my evil neighbours decided to start their noise making at about 1am this morning. I really really can't stand them! grrrrrrrr I even went to bed extra early so that I could get up at 5 to go spin. But after the evil neighbours woke me I couldn't get back to sleep :( *sulk* I am seriously considering writing a letter to them on behalf of the complex (pretend) to say that if they don't stop their shit now "we" will have to take things further. More of a scare tactic then anything else. I know I am moving out in a week, but I still need my sleep and my routine is suffering!

BUT other then that, things are great! Time to get back to work though. Hope you are all having a great day.

Good News!!! My Willpower has been spotted!!!

After my last entry, I sat down with myself and had a good talk. Thanks to all of you guys too, you really really helped. Well, me and myself decided that it's enough with the bullshit. I've come so far already and it is really stupid that I am letting myself get stuck like this. It really is so easy to just say no. Half the time I really don't want the crap that I eat and I just eat it because its there and because I think I want it. I am not doing without, I am actually doing myself a huge favour by not contaminating my body with all that shit.

I have to make a confession. Last Friday I weighed in at just over 89kg. I was so shocked and embarrassed that I decided to just pretend that I didn't weigh in and everything was ok... But the guilt weighed heavily on me (note the pun) and I think that is kind of what prompted my last entry.

So since Monday I have been extra good. I haven't allowed myself to binge on anything bad. Yes, I did have one chocolate, but its done and finished. I went to spinning class yesterday morning and have never enjoyed a class as much as I did that one! I am going to give away all the little choccies I have from Aus so that they don't tempt me anymore. I also went out last night to a market research thingy... They had a huge spread of snacks on the table for us to pick at during the meeting and I didn't have one *grin* I just sipped my bottle of water happily. I felt GREAT afterwards!

I can and WILL get my control back. If I have that control once there is no reason for me not to be like that always.

This morning I decided to jump on the dreaded scale...... I am back down to 87.6 *huge grin* !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Thats 0.2kg lighter than I have been ever! I feel both relieved and motivated.

A BIG BIG thank you to all of you who gave me such good advice. I am definately going to sit down and draw up a list. I am also going to put a proper exercise plan on my fridge and get rid of this last bit of the old me once and for all!!!!

I turn 29 on Sunday and what better time to have a brand new fresh beginning!!!! I will be comfortably at goal by my 30th!!! You just wait and see!!!!!

I’m feeling a little out of control at the moment… I don’t know what happened to my amazing willpower that I found a year and a bit ago while in Australia. I used to be able to say no to anything bad and I had so much self control it was scary. I got to the stage where I would have one small helping at dinner and would always turn down desert etc.

As much as I tell myself every day that I am still in control, deep down I know that I am not. In fact I feel that I am slowly spiralling out of control and it is scaring me.

I say that I am stuck on a plateau. But what kind of plateau lasts for over a year??? This has nothing to do with a plateau but everything to do with my food choices and lack of willpower.

I have a strict rule that I won’t keep any “bad” foods at home. I have been very good at sticking to that rule but every now and then something sneaks in and takes over.

At the moment I have a whole pile of bite size Cherry Ripe chocolates from my Australia trip. I told myself that I am only allowed one a week (if I am really craving chocolate) but I have been sneaking in one every other day.  I also keep some of my grandmothers famous home made biscuits in the freezer, so that if I do have guests, at least I can thaw something sweet to give to them. But over the past few months I find myself sneaking one almost every day!!! They actually call to me from the freezer… “eat me!!!!”

I also can’t just have one little piece of chocolate / cake / whatever. If I open a pack I have to eat them all! It’s a real disease and it’s driving me mad.

Why am I trying to sabotage myself? I just can’t understand how my mind and body are working. I have never looked so good or been so healthy and yet I am stuck! I am still far from my ideal weight / size. I know it is a very doable goal that I have set, and yet I can’t seem to do it!!!!

Even my gym is suffering at the moment. I always tell myself that tomorrow is another day and then when tomorrow comes it’s another excuse! I was doing so well!!!! I had it down to pat and was in total control. Where did my control go?

Sorry for such a “deep” entry, but I really have to get these thoughts out and off my chest. I am not depressed, just frustrated with myself right now.

I am feeling so guilty right now. I am really letting myself down. I need to reclaim my level of control that I was at not so long ago!

I know that I can do this and it really isn’t hard to do! How do I retune my brain???

Argh!!!! I’m off to the water cooler now! Maybe I’ll find the answer there J

All I can say is WOW!!!! I know this isn't a sport blog, and this doesn't really have much to do with weight loss, BUT yesterday I was part of a crowd of 32000 people and part of history being made!!!!! and I am still very excited about it and I HAVE to share!!!  (especiall with all you Aussies out there!!! hehe)

This is of me and my friend at the highest-scoring one-day international with a world record 438/9 against Australia!!!!!!!

(please excuse the dorky hat - it was free and I was trying to be patriotic!!!)

9 World records were broken on the day!!! I am still floating. Its the best money i've ever spent on a ticket to anything hehe

I am not even going to try and tell you what I ate this weekend... its very embarresing and I should be strongly reprimanded... But its Monday again and the start of another week and I get to start again and be good.

I wasn't well at all this weekend and I think that my stupid old subconscious decided that I would feel much better by eating as much rubbish as I could get my hands on. BAD MOVE!!!! I still can't believe I resorted to that. Oh well, as I said, I get to start from fresh again today and all is well again. Bring on the water!!!!!!

Why do I feel like i've been run over by a ten ton truck and then stomped on by an obese bull elephant with althetes foot? And why do I have to feel like this on a Friday???

I couldn't get up for gym this morning and I feel very guilty for not going. I don't know why I am struggling so much to get back into it. hmpf.

winge winge moan moan.... ;)

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later... Been to the doctor, he says I have some kind of virus that is going around and it is perfectly normal. I'm not dying and I will be feeling better in the next day or two :) yay!

Hope you have a great weekend

I finally managed to wake up (on time) for gym this morning. Its been a constant battle since I got back from Aus. I have been feeling so frustrated at not being able to get into my normal routine and I think that I am finally back.

Yesterday I had to work late in the evening, so I started work later in the morning and thought it would be the perfect opportunity to do the 6am spinning class. I usually miss this class as it ends too late, but now that I have to be at work later, its perfect for me. So I went to bed at about 21h30 and set my alarm for 5h45am. But then I couldn't sleep... I tossed and turned and turned and tossed :( Eventually I set my alarm clock for a bit later coz I NEED my sleep and if I don't get enough, you don't want to know me the next day. I did manage to wake up by myself at 6, but by that time I missed my spinning class :( - the good thing is that I still hauled my lazy ass out of bed and went to gym anyway.

Then last night I decided I was going to go to the 5h15am spinning class (my usual class). So I took a sleeping pill *blush* and that seems to have helped reset my clock (I hope). I am not a fan of taking pills unless I REALLY need them. So I felt kind of guilty but at least I got to go to spinning today and I feel so good for it!!!!

Its scary how quickly one gets out of shape. At least I know that I am able to get back into it pretty quickly too.

Oooh I am so excited!!!!! My friend got me a ticket to the SA vs Australia cricket match on Sunday!!!!!!! Yippeee The game has been sold out for Months and tickets are so hard to come by. So watch out Aussies!!!!!!! *grin*

I am trying very hard to do the chew food slowly thing. It is so hard to remember to do that. I normally wolf my food down and its gone before i've even registered that it was infront of me. I HAVE to change this. its BAD BAD BAD. So this morning I made sure that my cereal took extra long to eat :) yay!!!! Aren't you glad I told you all of this???

Oooh my cup of green tea is calling me... I best go get it! Have a great day!

Okay, before you think I am totally insane for being happy that its Monday morning! I must confess... I woke up in a really bad / depressed mood. I couldn't get up for gym (which I have been neglecting to do for over a week now) and I just didn't want to come in to work etc etc...  Anyway, I finally got up, showered, had breakfast and headed off to work. As I drove out of my street, I decided to compile a list of things that I should be happy for this morning.

The strangest thing is that it worked!!!! My mood has done a complete 360!!!! *grin* I always hear people say that they make a point of finding things to be happy about and I always (used to) grunt and say "pah, sounds like hogwash to me"  (what exactly is hogwash????). But now I am a convertee! I am happy to be awake! I am happy to be at work! how totally bizarre!!!!!!! hehe

Tomorrow I have to work late, so I am going to come in later in the morning which means I get to go to gym later than usual. This is a good thing, because I will get to go to the early spinning class, which is later on a Tuesday then on a Wednesday when I normally go. So now I will get to do two spinning classes a week!!!! yay! I hope I don't kill myself tomorrow after not having done spinning for the past month. I just have to get my head into gear and actually go to gym.

I haven't signed my lease yet.... This is turning into a bit of a nightmare, but I have made arrangements to meet with my new land lady tonight, after work and hopefully it will get sorted out once and for all! I really need this piece of paper to be signed so that I can put my mind at ease and start organising for my phone line to be moved, and for a removal company etc.

Anyhooo, time to get started with work. I hope you have, and are having a fantastic Monday. If not, seriously try make a list of things that you are happy about and that make you happy. Go outside and feel the sun on your face! and have a GREAT day!

I made it!!! Just!!! I am finally below 88kg!!!!!
Yes, it was only a 0.2kg loss BUT it seems to be a steady flow of small losses and I can certainly live with that :)
The best part is that it is TOM at the moment so technically I should have put on! *grin*

I finished my first pot at pottery last night! It still has to be fired in the kiln but its so cute!!! I will put a pic of it up as soon as I get it back. I now have to make two more similar pieces to go with it. I think I will either use it as a herb planter or for little cacti. My pottery teachers thinks I am a natural... I've always wanted to be a natural potter hehe (not really, but its still kewl).

I have a nice, busy weekend ahead of me. Can't wait. I just hope I will get to finally sign my lease! Then my mind will be at ease and I can start properly planning my move.

Happy Friday to you all, I hope you have a great weekend!

So, it is already March!!! I can't believe how quickly this year is flying.

This morning was totally bizarre and I am still a bit freaked out.. I am one of those strange people who tend to wake up before their alarm clock every morning. I have this ability to wake up at least 5 min before, but ALWAYS before. If i'm REALLY tired, I will wake up with my alarm. But this morning I totally overslept!!! I didn't even hear my alarm!!!! I don't remember ever doing that before and it has freaked me out hehe (Don't worry, I know I will get over it, its just very unusual for me).

I had a really nice day off yesterday. I went to vote fairly early in the morning and got it over and done with and then I spent pretty much the rest of the day reading and relaxing. It was actually perfect timing coz my TOM happened! I did pig out on full fat yoghurt and a chocolate, but overall I was quite good. Even bought myself a box of plums and chose them over chocolate (once) hehe

It's pottery night tonight! I can't wait! I am looking very forward to beating some clay up again.